woot.. went over to jianlin hse and spend the night there.. hahas.. met there at near 9:30 then went pioneer mall play dota till 10:30 like tt then went 7-eleven and bought drinks to jl de hse and drink.. muahaha..

was playing at his hse till late 1 or 2 am then suddenly all started falling asleep.. i m the first 1 -.-... hahas.. was thinking of her before i start to sleep.. haiix..

then yilong was actually sleeping on double decker bed with jianlin on the first deck and when suddenly so heavy lie on me.. i realise he collapse on me -.-.. wtf.. ahas.. but was quite fun..

then early in the morning wake up so early to get ready for work..siianx.. went to company late but luckily was not scolded.. and today i went to city hall!!.. hahas.. managed to see eason chan. lucky worr.. hahas. first time seeing singer just before my eyes and was so close to him and celest went to get some signature from him.. ^^

ok.. tt was for job..


也许你已经放弃我....
也许已经很难回头....
我知道是自己错过...
就算没有结果...
我也能够承受..
我知道你的痛..
是我给的承诺.
如果要走..
请你记得我..
如果难过...
请你忘了我........

tuesday

went to work this morning lolz.. was team with aldred the champ .. hahas.. he so pro.. work from 11:30am to 4:30pm and earned $350+.. woah.. pro jiu si pro.. hahas.. me work till 6:00+pm onli earn $135.. wtf.. junming so good forget how much he earned but higher than us alot..

this job is getting more n more fun .. hahas.. an ang moh walk past me n i approach him then i ask him " hello!.. do u understand english ? " .. then he replied " oh sorry i dun understand ... " -.-.. wtf.. hahas.. gays..

then after work went to makan at nearby de kfc... after tt met joshua at mrt control room.. LOLz.. then went home all together... joshua , jianlin , junming , simping , celestine and me!.. hahas...

used junming de hp and play around with the application " face warp ".. LOL.. then first picture we capture junming and LOL.. his face we change till so funny that we laugh all the way from city hall to dover.. LOl.. gay lo.. then ppl in the cabin tot us siiao as we keep laughing.. hahas.. face cram hahas.. joshua is realli a good joker..

then just reach home not long ago blog first so i wont forget or lazy to update.. =D...

guys!! jiayou!!

to my 2 little coming couples : jiayou! anything u need just approach me and if i can do it.. i will do anything for u 2.. =D

jianlin : relax dun take his word so seriously .. if wad he say is true.. then just let it be.. unless its not true or else dun argue with him...

haiix... when we will get back together again ?.. or never?...

-shangjie > dead

For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more




just hope u could understand n put an end to this meaningless war...
"/...

heyy .. i dunno u will come to my blog and see or not.. but .. that was all my point of view that u are wrong.. i remember i said " 1 for all and all for 1 " but tt was for the selection that if they choose us.. but in another way round .. they let us choose ourself the path we gonna take.. u choose the path of not working in the company and is not being rejected by the company so its u who make the choice to leave the company so does " 1 for all and all for 1 " work here ?.. NO .. i m just trying to proof tt we all didnt work just for the sake of money .. if for money .. i wont be working with u guys .. zz.. u can ask simping abt the pay tt our last company wanted to gave us.. its lot more better than this job!.. garantee! ..zzz...




maybe i m also selfish n childish tts y i said abt u .....

wads gone is gone ,.. no point regreting..

COME ON GUYS!! LETS MOVE ON! :)

friday..

its over .. i declare.. its realli over... no use wasting my time on tt kind of girl.. i had put all my trust on the wrong person.. to think she is tt kind of girl.. i m realli heartbroken.. but still its over..

my previous previous job was also selling charity things to create awarness and pay was $1.2k to $1.7k per month .. my previous was an agent to sell things which earn more than $300 + per week.. this job basic pay for per week is onli $200+commission ... zzzzzzzzz.. if i realli love money tt much.. y not i stay in my previous or previous previous office?..

i m truely disappointed in u to be tt kind of girl..

i cant imagine ;..

thursday

x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

went for job .. 2nd day .. another try out.. this time followed some instructors and the 8 of us.. including me.. was separated by the instructors.. then i was following these two instructors.. dunno called wad name.. they were realli damn funny and lame..

learnt what and how we do for the job.. hahas..

so in the end.. its WE had the choice to choose whether to join their company and not them as at first they say today they will selected those tt qualify for the job but in the end ... i realise the SELECTION is meant for us to select ourself wether to involve or not..

celestine , aud , simping , junming , jianlin and me decided to join but ivone and joyce decided to quit.. haiix.. hope they will change their mind.. as this is quite a nice job tt is hard to find which pay is in weeks and basic pay of $35.80 and + 20% commission each day ... so the basic will be $210+ per week.. woot.. + commission will be quite more than $500 per week if we work hard..

guys jiayou!... :)... hope she will turn back and join us..

then after job met alvin they all to celebrate birthday for ivone and alvin.. hahas.. went to east coast but was already 5:00+ when we reach so decided to ride bicycle and so coincidence met qingyang and seemum .. LOL.. see mum was mad.. she shout my name when she saw me and my friends they all shocked.. lolx.. then talk a bit.. went to catch crabs.. LOL.. and eventually found a hermitcrab.. lolx..

then soon after tt went mac to makan and realise time isnt early so all went home.. hope they all are fine.. haiix.. good lucky guys..

what shall i do next?...

-shangjie..

wednesday - bored

haiix.. dunno wad happen.. miss her more n more n more..
couldnt help myself to think of her..

wad is she doing ?
have she taken her meals?..
will she be going out?..
when will i get to see her again ?.. haiix..

early in the morning woke up and start to play games till noon then jianlin came my house to meet me then go to boon lay lan shop to play dota with a bunch of friends .. jianlin / wangcheng / xiangliang / heinhein / johnathn /alvin /yutai and last but not least junming.. hahas.. was having quite a good game.. but johnathan ruin the game by backdoor us.. evil...

then went makan.. talk a while then went home to discuss abt tml de events.. hahas... then chat chat chat... till now blog. haiix.. life is getting more n more bored.. think should start doing homework and worry abt my future le.. or else.. i m hopeless!!!

tml can see u le!! woot!.. hahas..

happy birthday to alvin u r 15 today!!!

happy birthday to u `
happy birthday to u `
u r born in the zoo `
happy birthday to u!!! .. hahas..

... till death do us apart..
I m justice!!
私は公正です!!

monday

found a job .. hope it goes well... simping jiayou a!!

haiix.. when will u recoveR?

tml looking for job.. hope could be recruited and the other 3 too.. god bless..

the world is turning..;
the peeps are changing.. ;
everyone ard me is changing.. ;

still dead..

sat-CIP
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

went to city hall to do CIP today but never do much instead.. we went to swimming till i sunburnt.. hahas.. then went back to cityhall to meet alvin n jessle in arcade played a few rounds of the house of the dead.. then went off with yutai to do some cips.. zzzzzzzzz.. for 10 mins onli 3 ppl out of 100+ ppl donate money to me.. wth... wads the world coming to .. --.--

then pek cheng so went off but alvin n boys came to look for me n yutai said want to dota so we went to penisula plaza to play but realise need $4 to play without being member ship and onli me got membership which i onli need to pay $2 onli .. so decided not to play .. went back to suntec to meet ivone they all again .. then found them at shuttle bus to city hall -.-...

hand in those cips things and discuss on where to go... but all dun hab answer no one suggest so delay quite alot of time.. -.-.. zzz.. but in de end jin he suggeested go LJS eat and since no one object then we all go eat lo.. hahas.. after eating.. went out of ljs squat down near road and fall asleep -.-... so tired.. then jianlin came out wake me up and then we chat and all ppl came out so went home lo.. cox quite late le..

if death could onli solve my problem.. i rather die than to wait ..
" how long could i wait ?..."

You don't know what it's like for me
to sleep at night, pretending to be happy,
but knowing nothing's right

You dont know what you do to me
You dont have a clue
You dont know what it feels like to love someone who doesnt love you

These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just too real
Theres just too much that time cannot erase

Theres pain inside I cant understand
Theres hate in life that will not go away
Theres pain inside I cannot live with it
It feels like no one really understands..

but still .. i didnt regret for loving u .. n i will continue to love u ,,,

went outing n interview today ...
talk abt interview first..

woah.. job being classified into 3 class.. 3rd class is selling of coupons raising fund for charity and from that my pay will be $1.2k~1.7k... hahas.. 2nd class and 1st class forget how much pay le..

lolx.. after job interview then went back Vivocity meet friends they all then buy gift for siewteng and went to the roof to play waters and seeing scenary .. hahas.. then soon after that went back home le.. during waiting for mrt.. we took some pics..

heres 1 of the pic..




shld i ?.. shld i not ?

monday


have friendly match with westwood sec today .. was quite an interesting match.. but left after 3rd quarter ended as have A maths remedia..

tue tml going to go for job intervie.. hope i get recruited..

the distance between u n me is getting further... am i losing hopes?.. *

wo zhen de zhen de hao ai ni... "/...

-shangjie

friday
x x x x

went to training after sch .. so tired.. maybe so long never go so tts y i m tired.. haiix.. must catch up with them.. i dun wan to be left behind.. "/.. jiayou!! jiayou!! jiayou!!

today is the day for marking i m freed from u .. i gonna live a new life... CHEERS!..

but all these... all are under my mask.. cox i know.. i cant forget uu..
-shangjie.

thursday
**************************

what must i do inorder to win ur heart?!... am i lost all the chance?...

-shangjie

Wednesday

+ + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +

2 more days to holiday ... need to quickly settle down with a part time job and during day time i shall go traiing .. night time go work.. i need to seriously slim down.. i m FAT.. "/...

need to stress and tired myself up during holiday so i could slim down.. hohoho... hope so.. hahas..

haiix.. todaynever go training again... shall promised onli allowed this week to be exempted from training as still got studies.. not i dun wan to go for trainig.. is i started realise wad my parents say .. u cant garantee ur future career yet so y not study hard now play hard later.. so i could have a 交代 for them.. but during holiday i shall realli train hard to get myself into the sch team!... i promised!.. 2 more days and holiday i shall always go training.. it will be the most important thing in holiday !...


<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<. .>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>...

There are 12 months a year...30 days a month...7 days a week...24 hours a day...60 minutes an hour...but only one like you in a lifetime....

Love. All my life I have read about it, dreamt of it, waited for it, cried for it, needed it. Now with you, I have found it...

When the time comes I can't smile anymore, don't worry about me, I know what to do. I'll just stare at one corner and think of you. No one else could make me happy like the way you do...

My biggest reward is to see you smile, know you are happy, and feel you are loved. I know life is sometimes cruel, but that's why I'm here, to show you that life can be good when somebody cares...

nitex... "o"

Tuesday- Into the sky

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

-.-.. todae was late for sch by just few seconds also consider as late -.-.. haiix.. then went back to class for normal lessons.. haiix.. so bored..

nothing fun or interestin happen today ... so dun feel like post le..

"v"

haiix..
a simple greeting will cheer me up for the whole dae..

monday~ -.-

x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

lolx.. was sleeping over at yilong hse ytd but ... didnt even sleep i think.. cox all sleep at 5+ then wake up at 6/7+ .. hhas.. then we all woke up found out too late for jianling to go home.. as all his parents bros went out then think of solution to help him.. but in the end he still try his luck go home n take clothes.. hahas..

then so siiaxn starting of the day 4 periods of E maths.. se tt jiao teacher de face.. wtf... keep critising ppl.. zz.. as usual.. hahas.. then after sch went to Aerospace lesson. woot.. talking damn long that me jianling and simping fall asleep.. hahas.. then he sae tml gonna have competition see who land the nicest will get a wing.. sweet.. i swear i must get tt wing.. die die must get!!.. hahas..

then reach home very tired.. play com till now then blog lo.. gtg ^^.. cya...

i still lve u alot.. how ?..
" i

sunday~ sleeping over friend hse

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

lolx.. now is 12:41 am.. hahas.. was at yilong hse having fun then i went to blog to post for todae..lols..

nth to post..-.-.. cya guys ^^

"luv ya "

friday-

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so bored at home.. wan to sms her.. but everytime press till " send " part.. i pres cancel.. haiix..
i dunno wad shld i do le..

"aiishiteru "

thursdae - ?

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i wan to .. but i cant.. haiix.. how i wish if she would understand.. even a little but would help me alot.. "/..

" where am i ? "

wednesdae normal sch dae ( dae 3 )

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dun wish talk abt todae.. as it realli a very normal day .. haiix.. she broke my heart..

ytd night i bought chocolate for her.. and left it in the fridge so as not to let it melt.. then in the morning kept it my bag and walk to sch.. during walking to sch .. i keep checking my bag.. scared tt it will be crush.. i keep checking my bag for at least 10 times before reaching sch .. haiix.. seems tt the choco is realli very important tt i had to protect it well..

saw her in sch then i ask someone to help me give choco to her.. then in reply she doesnt wants.. then before mother tongue lesson .. i gave it to her.. toting tt she will accept the choco .. cox she told me she liked any kind of chocolate.. i was so happy tt she took it.. but she kept under table.. then after mother tongue lesson.. she left the chocolate on the table.. i knew it.. she doesnt wan it.. i get angried.. heart broken tt i took back my choco ate it with my friends with a crying heart.. haiix.. the chocolate tt i protected so hard this morning .. turned to nth.. wadever effort i put in.. theres no fruit to it.. "/...

why ?...

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