Thursday, September 20, 2007
Where would Jesus be if no one had written the gospels?
Eyes closed, we imagined our pain as a ball of white healing light floating around our feet and rising to our knees, our waist, our chest. Our chakras opening. The heart chakra. The head chakra. Chloe talked us into caves where we meet our power animal. Mine was a penguin.
This was freedom. Losing all hope was freedom. If I didn't say anything, people in the group assumed the worst. They cried harder. I cried harder. Look up into the stars and you're gone.
Walking home after a support group, I felt more alive than I'd ever felt. I wasn't host to cancer or blood parasites; I was the little warm center that the life of the world crowded around.
And I slept. Babies don't sleep this well.
Every evening I died, and every evening, I was born.
A single frame in a movie is on the screen for one-sixtieth of a second. Divide a second into sixty different parts. That's how long the erection is. Towering four stories tall over the popcorn auditorium, slippery red and terrible, and no one sees it.
If I could wake up in a different place, at a different time, could I wake up as a different person?
One minute was enough, Tyler said, a person had to work hard for it, but a minute of perfection was worth the effort. A moment was the most you could ever expect from perfection.
"I used to work in a funeral home to feel good about myself, just the fact that I was breathing."
... the things you used to own, now they own you.
Sometimes you do something, and you get screwed. Sometimes it's the things you don't do, and you get screwed.
ahhh thats for today's reflection
Blood drips on
12:10 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007
Hahas today is my birthday
i think the most meaningful and happy day of my life is today
as its my first time celebrating with friends for my birthday
every year its either i celebrates it in my mind alones or just a few happy birthday from friends
but this year is really different and thanks to all those who came (:
hahas. lets start the blogging (:
woke up at 6 in the morning
sms being flooded with greetings and wishes
xDDD
so excited to start my day
so decided to late for poa since its 9~12 then 1~3
ahhas
poa lessons bored as usual and zikun and minghui drew this picture
was quite touched when sees these pictures and wordings. hehes
being so long since people send me things like that (:
thanks zikun and minghui!

after poa went back home to rest as later meet my friends to have dinner together
around 5+
alvin lee , yilong , william , yutai , simping , junming , jianlin , edmund , james, junming and some other peoples come my house to gather first and they gave me this green birthday card
hahas
its quite nice done by these guys (: and loves it !:D

when i turn it around and bend the paper , wow! Its more than meets the eye
hahas
see? its nice isnt it ?! xDDD
thanks guys!

Den 2nd gifts came in from them and was a black box !
anyone can guess wad it is ? x))
Oh yes!
they bought a high-cut converse shoes for me
its damn damn nice and they said its chosen by simping (:
thx simping for ur good taste
hehes
(:
the last but not least james soloed a gift to me and was a souvenir of coca-cola
with description at the door of the small box (:
meaningful of james (: thanks!
ahahs

den went the corridor to celebrate my birthday brought tables and cakes to nearby empty space outside my house and start singing my song
oh well attracted attention of neighbors and bet they must be envious and jealous of me to have these guys to celebrate birthday for me
hehes
den went to taman jurong dunno which area think its lotus garden restruant to have our dinner
tot its around $16 each person and everyone agrees and eat to our fullest
the food there is damn damn nice xDD
ahahs
but ending bills turn up more than wad we had expected
our table of 5 around $89.90 and the other group $100+++
damn luhh
hahs
den went boon lay for a round of dota then way to home!
home sweet home
(:
guys : thanks for today , i really enjoyed my birthday today as it seems to me today is my first time celebrating birthday . i had so much fun with u guys . seeing the high-cut shoes isnt cheap at all so knew it had make a hole in ur pockets, damn sorry >.< the meals is also expensive next time i shall have prepared and come my hse eat okay ? (:
thanks 1000 million timess
and lastly
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN!
-shangjieee
Blood drips on
12:45 AM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Hello peeps!
(:
saw quite a number of friends change blogskin so i also wanna change =P
lols
saw this blogskin though for a longtime then decided to use it
ahhas
dunno nice or not "/
then suddenly remember this song beautiful song
since its a nice song to me so i put in my blog :D
xDD quite loves it
currently living quite happily
(:
wonder how many people will come if my funeral were to come :D
ahhas
-shangjieee
Blood drips on
4:40 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
hmm
dunno why just feeling like blogging for today .
haiis
a lot of things happen sia .
but overall mood is still quite okay
as i told myself no matter wad happens
no matter how many friends walk with me in the end
i gonna smile with and for them (:
was more and more near to 'O' level and i am still playing dota .
zzz
really dunno when will i wake up ?
i tell myself this september holiday shall wake up but dunno can or not
haiis
wake me up when september ends
hahas .
but really wish now already finished o level le so that i can work outdoor and interact with people
i dun mind saying here that i loves to interact with people and make them happy
whenever i sees the people that i made them happy
i will be happy too and i simply loves it so i plan to work interacting with people no matter how much pay it is (:
but now.
seriously
i
am
desperate
for
a
psp
-.-
everytime sees people playing psp my hand will be very itchy and will like to play too
haiis
so envious those who hab PSP
"/
hongxiang is getting a psp soon le
xiuling my VIDDC
(:
-shangjieee
Blood drips on
10:36 PM